Tuesday, August 7, 2012


Three weeks. Just three weeks (and a day…technicalities) stand between me and my return to Binghamton. I am excited & anxious to return. I get to move in two days early to help move in the freshmen (which means I get to pick my side of the room!! Yay!) I am so excited to help move these guys in, but its hard to believe I was in their shoes last year. Well, this past week, a lot of things have been reminding me of my return. Yesterday, I spent a lot of time thinking about this coming school year.

I got an email from housing talking about move in day. I also started messaged my suitemates on Facebook about what we are bringing. I have a confession to make, I am nervous about my housing this year. I am living with five girls I have never lived with before. Don’t get me wrong, they are all so nice and seem wonderful, but this is totally out of my comfort zone. Three of them lived in a triple last year and the other two were roommates in another building. This makes me the odd girl out. That scares me. It also scares me that I don’t know my roommate very well. I just really hope she likes me (is that lame?) I am scared about being “the Christian girl” in my suite. I know that God has put me in this suite for a reason. I know He has plans for me there, but I feel timid about sharing my faith & living it out with them. He has been teaching me a lot about boldness, but it is a long process.

Don’t worry, I also mentioned I was excited…because boy am I!! I am involved with my campus’s Intervarsity, and this year I will be a small group leader! I trained as one last semester, but now it’s that real deal. I’m kind of really pumped. Last night, my co-leader Sasha and I got to video chat and catch up. Talking to her and discussing the goals we have got me so so hyped!! I am beyond excited to have the opportunity to pour into my peers lives and build a community beyond a weekly bible study. I am especially looking forward to the incoming freshmen who will be checking IV out. We have the opportunity to grow friendships and intentional relationships…and that is awesome, but also a great accountability tool. I hope that it drives me to be genuine with my faith in my daily life. I hope I can lead well and lead humbly through this opportunity. I know God has a plan, but it continually fascinates me that He wants to use me, my strengths, and my weakness in that plan.

I feel silly that I am so eager to live out my faith with one group but not that other. It’s crazy that I think I can live a dual-life at school, although last year I kind of did. This year is different. I know now that I need to give God my all. I am so thankful that God has really met me where I am this summer. He has been stretching me and teaching me to rely on Him…and boy do I need it! This semester, I will have a heavy course load, a lot of IV involvement, and I need to remember to be intentional with people. I could easily get overwhelmed, but I am hopeful, even through my fears, that God is good. I cannot wait to see how He plans to teach me and mold me through this semester.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Only 22 more days!!!!!!!!!!!




Samantha Shepherd said...

We're so alike! I'm living with three girl who all roomed together last year making me the "new girl." I'm excited though because they seem phenomenal. Can't wait to see what this semester has for both of us!

Melanie said...

can TOTALLY relate here. i spent my entire freshman year doing the double life thing - this year, i'm going to live out my faith while living in my sorority house and i am so so so scared. i have faith, though, that god will be there for us while we transition into these new living situations. he's got us :)

Erin Marie said...

I love this! Totally makes me think of my dorm years in college -- yikes! But yes, it does build character and God will bless your desire to live like him and be an example for the girls you live with. Keep on goin' girl, you got this.

Kaitlin said...

I'm leading a small group this next year for the first time too! I'm so nervous / excited. Praying that God will use you in your suitemates' lives so that they can know His love too!